  I just feel like there is a dark cloud around me, like a fog of darkness, and I can't see which way to go because no matter which way I go there's so much more dark cloud for me to be in so I never know if I'm going the right direction. Can you understand that? I feel like I must be the saddest person that there is in the world ever.
I know that that is probably not true but what if it is? It feels like it is in my heart: I will tell you that. It was just that it was such a disaster for me to have broken up with my girlfriend that I was so sad that I drank a lot and to tell you honestly that is probably partly responsible for how I ruined my car and lost my eyeball on the straw. So the bad things just keep adding up and the only good things that I can find are that eventually things will be better. But I know that my eyeball will never grow back in my eye and that with not having an eye and with the scar on my eye lid that is shaped like a straw hole and without a car there is no way I can ever get Sara back.
So will it get better? Only in that they tell me that my eyebrow will grow back soon. And to tell the facts Sara cheated on me even before I didn't have a car so I guess I wouldn't be good enough for her even if it had never happened anyway. Can anyone have any ideas about how I can get out of this cloud? I bet they won't work. No offense meant. 
