  Will I ever learn? I don't think so. Today I woke up all bright eyed and optimistic about the day. Took my shower, got dressed (put on a cutesy top) Hair actually looks good today. Going to take some time to get used to though.
Then ring ring..phone rings. It was G. He went to see an apt and liked it. Asked if he could drop by since he was in the area. I said sure like the idiot that I am. Why can't I say no and mean it?? especially where he is concerned. Have I not been hurt enough by him? I guess I'm just a sucker for punishment. Anyways he came up...seemed impressed that I was all dolled up and he liked my new hair do. Kept giving me compliments. I think he had thought I was going to meet someone and thats why he said why don't we go see a movie.
And we did...went to see Troy. It was three hours but I really enjoyed it. After the movie he came back here for a bit. Thank god..it's that time of month or I know exactly where whe would have ended up. Damn it. Why do we have such a physical attraction for eachother.
What we had or have is so much more then sex but I don't think I have ever felt this type of chemistry. He just looks at me and I want him in my bed. He's just as bad. He calls me a bad kitten..lmao Oh well..he went home for awhile but couldn't get any work done or concentrate because his mom was doing some renovations on the house so he asked if he can come back over here. He's still here now but in bed sleeping. Said he had a headache and just wanted to lay down but that he was leaving around 10.
Nice drop in center I run here..lmao Oh well...I only have myself to blame if this ends up hurting me again. There is a slight difference though with today. I put a personal ad up on a dating site to see if I could meet people in my area as opposed to the american men that I have been in contact with.
It's working. Today already I had ten emails from all the type of men that I would be attracted to and they actually live around my place. Amazing. So I am not giving up hope that I'll be able to one day say G who because I have found that special someone that I'm actually looking for that knows what he wants out of life, doesn't have to go searching for someone else and that will love me for who I am. *sigh* Well going to go watch some tv till G gets up. I'll be back if there's anything else to tell but probably not. ~~peace~~ Kat 
