  Couldn't think of anything to write these days. Too much things on my mind to think. Felt guity about doing almost nothing yesterday. I guess I'm addicted to exercise more than I think. Getting sick of swimming these days. Rather monotonous going about the same routine.
I think it's time for a change. Watched the korean movie Bortherhood yesterday. It's worth it. I liked it alot but this guy (probably poly or jc) beside me was laughing at some of the scenes, which were rather touching for me. Maybe I'm too sensitive or maybe I can understand the character's loss in war. I can't wait for this dude to get into army and somebody start screwing with his ass.
But then of course, maybe he'll just fake a I-have-a-hole-in-my-heart routine to 'siam' all the tough work in NS. Cest' La Vie. Ot that nothing interesting happened in my life but I guess I had more to think about these days. Being jobless can do these kind of things to you. Yeah, life would be nice if I had a 9-5 5 days a week kind of job that pays 1500-2000 to begin with. Slowly work your way up to 2500-3000 then life would be nice wouldn't it?
Eat Ben & Jerry's everyday. Listen to songs from my iPod, chatting in some mmorpg or playing some game on my Athlon64 box. Maybe even get a motorbike or my first car (not that I would). Life? Asked GL whether if he really considered ZF the most successful among us four. He said he said his life was alright... good enough.
He then asked me what I considered as successful in life. I told him to live life happily. He then replied ZF was the most troubled and unhappy one among us. I do envy ZF's life. Seems like his career is set, working with HP getting good pay and even upgrading himself with courses he takes at night. But then I guess it's sad that you don't get to enjoy.
Most people would think it's normal to suffer when you're young so you will enjoy when you're old. Then one day while you're crossing the road on your way to night class, a young kid, who just earned his driving license 2 months ago, was celebrating his birthday in a pub by getting dead drunk comes driving down the road and sends you flying. As you lay down on your pool of blood on that stretch of asphalt, you are filled with anger on why is this happening to you? I am too young to die. So much things to do. I haven't enjoyed life yet!
I guess the drunk young punk knocked me down several years ago. I look upon my fellow friends and Singaporeans living in a sedantary life, growing fat, trying to get thin, buying oakley sunglasses (never to really use them except on a once a month 2 hour beach volleyball workout @ sentosa), wearing the new Nike running shoes (to have never really use them ... on a run except maybe to jaywalk) with digust. I always thought I could never be like them. And lately, it has been what's wrong with indulging yourself? Fat Renault automobile salesman at Suntec looks happy with his pda/phone working in an Air-con environment earning a commission worth more than what I could earn in half a years allowance in NS? Skinny female banker looks happy browsing through the latest hip diet/fitness magazine looking for new ways to get even thinner and eating anything she wants while sitting down at Starbucks sipping her latte.
Extreme point of views? There are normal people who just work and grow fat (maybe some work out once in a while, some workout 3 times a week). Times I feel like I should let go and try to live a civilian life. Life's nice as a student (for me anyway) bumming, playing games, hanging out with friends. But when the student phase is over it seems as though life gets worse. What am I working for? 
