  So i just got home from babysitting and ive been talking to like everyone tonight. Tattiane seemed to fill me in on everything that i missed, which is practically nothing except for the usual girl bullshit drama. I kinda like all that though, it gives us something to do. So like 20 minutes after i spoke to tatiane, deena calls and sounds all upset. I immediately know it has some to do with Cory...and surprisingly it is. I also find out that Stephanie broke up with ajay. Is everyone having guy problems? Idk, stephanie i just think is like bored with her life, so she has to find ways to change it, and the only thing she has control of is ajay. But deena said that cory was flirting with Stephanie, which is highly possible considering the circumstances that cory is a manwhore. I also found out that all of luis's friends are gay. Im surprised that he isnt...haha. God i get so grossed out everytime i hear a story about it. I have nothing against gay people, its just their gay tendencies. Like whatever they do is fine, as long as i dont know about it. TYpical stuff that a guy and a girl do is fine and doesn's gross me out except for like orgies and stuff like that, but i mean just thinking about a guy giving another guy head or other homosexual tendencies just freak me out, i dont really know why.
But in other news, i was talking to my mom when i got home and telling her that i talked to everyone and luis...she actually was really okay with that. She knows that im not going to give up a friendship. With him, i have made such a good friendship.
Like i was talking to staceys mom and she was sayign all this stuff that stacey goes through, and like with casey, she made him one of her best friends,a nd thats how i feel about luis, so i mean whatever happens, i know that i will have him as a good friend, and i value that. I think im actually starting to get my life back in order. Idk just talking to like tatiane and deena made me feel back into the swing of things. I really dont know its wierd but im actually starting to feel better. Oh so i think i want to get a fish tomrorow. I need to liven up my room. Haha. Its so like depressing. Like plant is dying and im bored of it, i want to go get liek a bush or tree or something different to put into the corner of my room.
But so idk im feeling better about myself most definately.I think i can attribute some of it to the journal because i cant just sit there and talk to anyone about this because most of my friends lose interest lol. So this is good for me just to sit and talk, talk talk talk talk talk. But i made 40$ tonight babysitting the cutest little girl. Kaleigh...wierdest name, but cutest girl everrrrrrrrrrrrr. Alright its like almost 1 and i gotta wake up soon. Love to all those that care. 
