  What a great day. Went riding with G for most of the afternoon. I always enjoy my time with him. I always feel very relaxed and safe when I am with G. As we rode today, my mind wandered and thoughts of many things came bouncing about.
The freedom of the open road helped me realize how much better my life is without BV in my life. I just never knew how much of a negative force he was in my life. I don't hold a lot of resentment towards BV anymore, but what he did to my daughter is going to take some time to get over.
He used her to get to me, and he was very sly about it all. He would have never gotten his foot in the door if I had not been vunerable and heartbroken from another relationship. He had only been asking me out for 3 years, and I wanted no part of his life. He just wasn't my type. Very manipulative, smooth, and always looking for the next sexual score. Then when I became down and weak, he swooped down and hit me hard.
But as we were out riding today, I realized it all is over now, and such good riddens too. I am not bitter, but I do have a lot of unanswered questions, but when those questions pop up I just say to myself...."It just is". And so chapter closed, and so things are as they are, or It just is!!! Well its getting late, and I think I am going to go meditate and go read for awhile. ~~spirit~~ 
