  last night i tot of it the whole night after wat looks or sound& nbsp; like a quarral had happened.  it nothing after all .  so wat if i like?  like den like lorz right?
 itz dosen even bother him .  he dont even give a damn about it .  so wat the point ? nbsp;  there's no point to it right& nbsp;
 .  blame myself for my own stupidness .  i am so darn stupid lo .  let him like that make fun of me .  this is the first time such crush thing happened to me so i didnt really know wat to do .  other den to be so scared and afraid .
 anyway itz all over now so there's nothing liaoz .  was i really going around the bush?  i dont know .  i just noe that i dont wan anything to happen .  arrrgghhh!  i also dunno wat i am thinking .
 it really hurts la .  the way u speak and the things you say .  u wont noe how it feel coz itz not you .  our friendship .  it kinda like turn sour .  wat to do when we see each other?
 avoid?  smile?  i dont know .  i have no idea .  i really feel very uneasy .  maybe i should just quit band and forget abt every thing .
maybe i should anyway itz i new day now .  althou things& nbsp;  are still in my mind .  feelings are still there .  i am sure that they will fade away .
 they sure willl.  ha.  i got nothing to say liaoz .  hurt or not hurt i dont think you care .  hey ppl.  just cant wait&
nbsp; to see u all& nbsp; at band .  ____________________________________________________________________ P. S .
 every day will be the happy noisy faggot me .
