  In August, I will be leaving for graduate school at the University of Tennessee, Knoxville, a place that I never thought I would return to. It was my second choice school because (1) I had been there, done that and who wants to back track?
and (2) because I thought I wanted something different. I left my senior year of undergrad and transferred to Memphis because my life was in disarray. My mom was sick, I had barely escaped a car accident and drama hovered every nook and crany of UT. So to appease my mother and partly myself, I came home. It didn't take long to graduate because miraculously all of my credits transferred.
Coincidence? No. I was reading the Bible the other day and I read a scripture about how God will transform you and bring you back to the place you left, to channel your growth. I am a totally different person than I was then and I welcome the opportunity now because I know that God is placing me there for a reason. It will be the first time I have lived alone and I will be the first to admit, I am intimidated by that fact. Lately, God has placed a number of things and people back in my life and it has made me appreciate their presence and re-evaluate their importance. I am savoring the experiences I am having now and the ones that I will be having in the future. I never realized how much I needed to 'backtrack' in order to progress forward and come full circle. Some things in your past are meant for you treasure and acknowledge its worth. My God is a God of second chances and the second chance is always better than the first. I'm going back to finish what I started, in hopes that I will leave these experiences with an even more evolved spirit. I never realized how much I missed people and places until after being reunited with them, you see just how beautiful and amazing they were. I am elated at the fact that I have learned that I am not truly the 'master of my fate, the captain of my soul'.
Now I know how to let go and let God...He'll always bring me back to the middle for a purpose and this time, I will come full circle, exposed feelings and emotions in tow. I'll embrace the things he has given me the second chance to bring to fruition. I finally understand that closure does not always signify an ending but also a beginning. Peace. 
