  Well, I have not done much today. It is 6:41pm, and I just took a shower and brushed my teeth. Yup! Don't even dare and say that's nasty, because guess what? I work hard all week, pay my own bills, answer to no one except God and myself, and the Lord sure has not complained about it, so you can't say a darned thing. Deal with that. Anyways,my girl Ari has been calling me all day since this morning, asking why I have not called her today, why I won't come hang out with her while she has the Pastor's kid, since they're in Chicago right now(along with everyone else we know. urlLink Pastor Paula (church co-pastor @ urlLink WWIC ), is having a major big time Christian crusade up there,and we just happen to be stuck here, because our sorry behind job (Ari & I,work together)doesn't give us the days.
They deny everything you request. She thinks, I'm depressed and just moping and having a pity party, wanting to be stuck in my circumstances. Okaaaay...No. I just want to relax and enjoy my home, and the fact that I have nothing to do, no one pulling on me or asking me to help them with anything. That feels good. On top of me doing some things in the house that need to be done, and reading some, and writing some. Oh, and also, I don't really have money right now, so I don't have excess gas to be wasting, rippin' and running the streets... for what? I'm actually, somewhat of a really homey person. I'm not old, I'm just getting to a place in my life where I'm REALLY starting to see what the important things are in my life. You have to sit down and breathe, and relax because there will come a time when our life goes into the next level, and time will no longer be our commodity...it will become a luxury. Enjoy life...enjoy and cherish your real friends. You don't have to spend every waking moment with them, but plan dates and get togethers from time to time (even if you got a man ).Enjoy your house, or apartment, or wherever you call home.
Because someday soon, that place of serenity will become the next local circus of crying kids, wanting your every attention, and getting it anyway they can from screaming , yelling, fighting each other, getting into stuff you told them a trillion times to stay out of, messing up the places in the house that you just straightened up 10 minutes ago, telling you they hate kids church and are not going....whoooo!! The list goes on...I'm no mother yet, but I have nannied enough to see what that life entails. I will be happy to embrace all of that...when I'm ready for that.
And right now, I'm not. I'm ready to get to the bottom of ME , and who ME is, and what ME wants, and what ME can give and offer. I took the first step yesterday, by going by the urlLink college to re-apply and see what Financial Aid will reward me for the next year. I left college in 1998 after one year, and am just now returning. Granted, I feel as if I am not doing anything with my life,and am working a dead end job that has no apparent hopes of evolving into any career; I feel I am making a good step towards one of my goals. Better, late, than never, right? I won't have to regret not getting that degree, I'll just be regretting that I didn't get it done sooner.
Oh, and then they tell me that I need to take the stupid entrance exam again!! I was like, "why"? The advisor said,"They're only good for two years, baby. How would we know where to place you in math or anything? " And I'm like,"Right where I was before". She looked at me and was like, "baby, you graduated high school 7 years ago, you might need prep courses to start off". Okaaaaaaaaay!!! What, you think I'm boom boom, or something? Mind you, I was in all honors courses, (except in math), and was in many honor societies in high school. I ain't no boom boom, first year, straight out of high school freshman. But of course, I was saying all that *ish*, in my head.
She told me that there were prep test booklets of the entrance exam in the bookstore, and advised I invest in them to prepare for the test first, so I would not have to take prep math, english or reading. Believe you me, I was at that bookstore in a quick Tampa hotstep, forking over $12.84 to get them booklets.
It's funny, because my roommate and I have been lounging around all day watching reality and make-over shows, and complaining about how we feel we are not accompolishing anything. She is 22, I'm 25. She is a full-time student @ urlLink USF , and works at the urlLink "Blue Martini" at urlLink International Mall . I feel she is at least doing a bit more than me...but, I completely feel her. Well, I'm not flowing as well right now, so I'm going to veg out in front of the T.V. 
