  well its summer. look at me go. finally getting on the computer and such. i haven't drafted a blog dealie in a while so here goes. go me. well JP and I are back together.
:) yay. best make up sex ever. hehe mmmm. that's really all that's going on there. other than JP, i haven't been doing much of anything. Working... yay.
not. I hate applebee's. they are shady bastards. i've been begging to do ToGo for like 3 months now and they said i could and everything but they are all saying different things now and its pissing me off but i finally got the GM glenn to agree to it, now its just a matter of putting me on the schedule but mark the flaming ass pirate won't put me on the schedule. its quite aggravating. and then TODAYYYYYY they flat out asked this chick dana to do ToGo.
it made me angry. very Very VERY angry. but who wants to hear about that? i certainly dont. song in my speakers: the postal service- nothing better i miss my dear california friends. especially seeing as its summer.
i mean, i have much more time to think about that. and also i dont have any real friends here so it makes it harder. you know i thought i did but when no one calls you back and everyone is too busy with their own thing, it really makes you think otherwise. christa is supposed to come visit in the near future... july 16 or 17 tenatively... but when she wont respond to me, it makes it that much harder as well. it would be nice if i could see my best friend... but i dont think i really have a best friend anymore. oh well.
it happens check out Q and not U. its an AMAZING band. back to this friend issue. i love story of the year. but another thing that makes me so sad is one of their songs. cuz its totally reminds me of my friends... or lack thereof.. think of it how you will. but yah...
Page Avenue.. great song: I still recall every summer night like it was yesterday. The time could never end and my friends were family. Nothing mattered more then the loyalty we had. Now I'm a world away from everything we shared. I had something better waiting ahead. I try to take control of my heart.
I had something better, But i'll tear it down and I'll tape it up by my own design. I fall. Bring back the days. Three story parking lot. The air is never dry. As the city falls asleep days bleed into the night.
The table set the stage for a life of memories, But I'm a world away from everything. I fall apart as time passes by. I fall apart but the memories never die. that pretty much explains EXACTLY how i'm feeling. but thats ok. life is shitty right now. and i think it's meant to be that way.
its like people don't even realize i exist anymore. i'm getting quite tired of people not listening to me, or what's worse; acting like they are listening but then pass me and what i say as nothing. it makes me sad. oh well. what else is there to do but deal with it? kill myself... yah right.
the pessimism in this room is suffocating. maybe i should open a window or something. 
