  I dunno who will read this blog,  I haven't decided but,  when I do I will share it with my friends. life has been a little crazy,  last night Jake asked me to go to one of his friends houses to get wasted. yeah uh NO!  so everyboday thought I was gonna go with him,  and I admit I was kinda nervous because I did kinda want to be with him,  so it was closing and I called my dad and told him that some friends had asked me to go get some ice cream from somewhere. he believed me and I did feel bad,  but I was excited and also scared. well Kevin being the friend I prolly needed that moment,
 told me not to go,  that I could get hurt and that if I did he was gonna get his shotgun,  and hurt someone. that someone being Jake.  so after everything was closed Jake said that maybe we could just drive around for a bit. I was ok with that. but in the back of my mind and looking at him. I felt that if I went with him something awful was going to happen.
so I talked to Stephanie secretly and she came up to us and said "  I thought you were going to come to my house for awhile"  and Jake told me that it was ok if I wanted to go with her. so I did. and when I got in her car I cried. I had gotten away from him. and I am glad. I don't know what I would have done with him. If I had went. who knows.
