  Was reading this book by Viktor Frankl " Man's Search for Meaning". this psychiatrist/ psychotherapist re-inspired my search for the purpose/ the meaning or value of my life.
:::: read urlLink short biography of Viktor E. Frankl :::::::::: &nbsp; while i was&nbsp;reading the chapter on his recollections of the days he spent in concentration camps,&nbsp;i was reminded of "the schindler's list' the movie and immediately recalled the apathy and&nbsp;lacking-in-reactions i experienced as i watched it as a teen. i couldn't comprehend what the people in that black-white show were going through. especially the scene where women and men, old and young, were lining up in full nakedness for their rations/numbers, while the officers are fully clothed in smart uniforms and commanding presence. &nbsp; he&nbsp;mentioned that&nbsp;when humans are faced with extreme or abnormal forms of suffering and torture, whether upon oneself or others, they responded with an abnormal reaction -- apathy.
(exact citation to be quoted) and i am going through this abnormal reaction in my current situation, ever since i resigned from my prev job. not to the extent of utter apathy, but a deep subtle dread and withdrawal reflex from any source of intense (negative) emotion. or an emerging blockade upon any hint of intense attachment. i jus feel terribly drained. &nbsp; i couldnt really comprehend and cant do much about it... contented about jus leaving it to recuperate.. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 
