  many frens told me to take my time, don jump into any job... on the premise that my savings can last.. my parents asked if i have been trying to find a job, n what am i trying to find.
they offered help. so far they hv not pressure me: they have only asked less than 5 times in these 3 months. and i m sorta grateful. then how come i m feeling all the pressure, from inside me. i hv worked for a few yrs, i know my spending n saving habit. without income, u don truly feel yr independence. sometimes how u hv been taught at home, educated in school, social moulding and the manpower, economics infrastructure creep deep down into u. n it manifests as part of yr ability to feel guilt.
like an invisible knight with an invisible sword, formidable presence. like a prison warder preparing the hang-up for you, inevitable choice n the urgency. 
