  As you may have noticed, I avoided weight loss topics yesterday. This was because I was feeling guilty for making a trip to the Burger King drive-thru Tuesday night. My plan backfired, which was to skip the big snack I have in the afternoon and have a little snack, and then just eat a regular meal when I got home. I was soooooo freaking hungry by the time I got out of work at 8:00pm, my car practically drove itself to BK. I didn’t feel like I could avoid it, there was no way I could talk myself out of going there (except, maybe driving up the road to McDonald’s). I hate this feeling, and I haven’t had it in a long time. Next week, I am sticking to the big snack / sushi plan. So, just the other day, I was giving someone else who blogs a friendly reminder about the guilt cycle. If you put “moral attachments” to your food (i.e., “good” food vs. “bad” food), and you have a “bad” food, you start to feel guilty. When you feel guilty, you subsequently restrict yourself until you feel deprived. When you are deprived, you set yourself up for another attack of eating “bad” food, which leads to more guilt, more deprivation, etc.
You get the idea. Well, I made a moral judgment about my Burger King attack. And yesterday I was feeling mighty guilty. So who really needs the reminder? I need to accept as a fact that if I don’t eat 300 calories in the 3:00 – 4:00 pm hour on Tuesdays, I will be so hungry by the time I get off work, that Burger King will be teleporting me through it’s drive-thru.
This is a fact, and it is neither good nor bad. I made a choice to eat a small snack in the afternoon and the consequence of that choice was that I was hungry later on. Nothing to feel guilty about, it is what it is. We must always work on our habits. I heard once that it takes 21 days to make a new behavior a habit, but I think it takes much, much longer than that.
The good news is that I weighed myself this morning and I have broken free of the 212-pound stagnation, and registered 210 on the gym scale! This was a needed boost, after I went to a certain doctor I see every three months, and during this most recent three month period I had only lost 5 pounds on his scale (the previous three months I had lost 12, which isn’t too shabby – a pound a week).
Then, in an effort to revive my motivation, I went home and reviewed my food journal, and saw that my food had been pretty on target the past month with the exception of this week (starting with the hot dogs and potato salad last Saturday). So I was expecting a level readout. Now you know why I am feeling like a lot of this is up to chance! Whatever is working, I’ll take what I can get. 
