  I finally quit my piano lessons today. It was a waste of time and a waste of money. I didn't really go to school today. I thought it was a late start. I went to like one class today. That's horrible.
I should have just stayed home. I don't know if I can go back to school. Honestly, I'm really scared. There's only a week or so left but my English teacher is going to kill me. I don't know why I find her so intimidating. She's short, skinny and pregnant..
I haven't been to math in like 3 weeks and my history teacher secretly wishes I would fall off a cliff or something. Everyone is freaking out today. They are driving me nuts. One minute they are happy and the next they are ready to blow someone's head off. I don't really know where to start but this is something I have to say. Matt, I hope you get a chance to read this because it's important and I hope you are not angry that I used your real name but I think using a fake one is pretty stupid and everyone who is going to read this already knows how I feel.
so that leaves you the only person who doesn't know. This is long over due and it's time that I stop leading you on, letting you think that there could actually be something besides friendship between us.I know I should have told you before but it's hard when are pouring out these crazy emotions and confessing your love. I refuse to believe that you are in love with me. We hardly ever talk. I mean, I talk to my boyfriend for like 6 hours everyday. I have a hard time holding a conversation with you for more than 5 minutes.
You used to be happy and fun to hang out with and easy to talk to but now its seems like you're nothing more than an heartbroken emo kid. Why would you want to ruin the friendship that we used to have. You've changed so much. I miss the old Matt. The matt who I could talk to, who I could hang out with. Remember when we ditched school and you were trying to play it cool but you were actually freaking out because you let Chelsea drive your car and she only had a permit or when we went to the distillers concert and none of us but you were old enough to get in.
Don't you miss all those Sunday mornings at village inn??? I'm telling you right now you need to get over me and move on. I'm not THAT cool. You'll find someone who is right for you, and believe me that person is not me. I don't understand how you can be all (emo)tional over me, when you are doing the exact same thing, if not worse to Sam. She always thought you were one of the greatest people that she knows but then you went and lead her on.
Why didn't you just tell her from the very beginning. She just wants to know that you actually care, that you want to be friends, that you aren't just some jerk. Just go up to her and talk to her. She's not mad at you or anything she just wants to know the truth. I hope we will be friends for a long time but I'm just telling you that you need to get over this sappy bullshit. What you do about Sam, well that's your choice but I know you'll do the right thing.
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