  Okay, I'm having a shitty time. I want to cut. But I don't want to be that weak. There are people far worse off than me. And&nbsp; need to stay strong, not just for me and my family, but for the people who need me, like *nameless*. I need to stay strong so&nbsp;I can be there for her, cause if I'm in a state, who's she gonna turn to?
I'm over-tired and over-emotional, and I'm regressing, again, and I hate myself for it, and I'm on the verge of tears typing this but my nan's downstairs and if I cry she's gonna ask so many questions, and I can't face that. I'm gonna break down, I can't cope with this. Just I wish I had somebody to talk to. I wanna phone childline, that's a good idea. whenever it is that I'm home alone next I'm phoning childline. &nbsp; I was gonna do some exercises tonight.
Shit. I ain't gonna lose any weight this way, am I. *cries long and hard, wishing for a shoulder* 
