  can neighbors hear tears thru the walls? things most ppl dont know abt me 1. i cry a lot. at least 2-3 times a week. sumtimes i like to do it alone. sumtimes i have an audience. can my neighbors hear tears thru these thin ass walls & if they can do they ever wanna come on over 2. im scared to death of so many things.
dogs being a big one. since i was a little gurl i was so scared of big dogs jumping on me. im scared of balls too. it might sound silly but im scared that balls will hit me on my head & give me a concussion. im also scared that birds will poop on me. i hate it when birds fly over my head.
drives me insane man. im mostly afraid that ppl will fall out of love with me. ive been known to "try to hard" becuz of this fear. 3. i luv 90s rock music. bush, stone temple pilots, metallica, nirvana, etc... mostly what was considered "grunge" music. i LOVE PEARL JAM.
im talking about love man. the first 2 albums, know every song word for word. i grew up around a lot of white folks and was always trying to assimilate. i developed a taste for bands like Phish, Weezer, Beetles. I felt like a whitewashed black gurl a lot of my life... now i just feel musically well rounded & experienced. & while we're at it, my first 2 boyfriends bonified white boyz.
4. i always wanted to be a cheerleader. even in college, i was envious of the Dance team. Cheerleaders suck i know, but i wanted to be one, i just sat with the other "daria" gurls and made fun of cheerleaders. 5. now that im telling secrets, i always wanted to be miss america too, disgusting, aint it. _________________________________ 7 day diet nonis breakup cure (for broken ppl everywhere) 1. buy candles. preferably tall red votive candles.
the catholic kinds are nice cuz u can get them in virgen, saint, & jesus varities, those pictures are nice when u are sad. lite the wicks. turn off the lites. lock your door. dont tell nobody u broke up. just lock the door & deal with your shit.
take out your SADE CD (everyone should already have one of these) put on the track love is stronger than pride . this song is honest. u will not get over this soon so just sit in it. it also feels like rushing water. u will feel clean listening to this song. it has lyrics like "things come & go" very zen baby & during breakup time u need zen & realism.
this song has both. put this track on repeat. listen for 3 days. take breaks. cry. shower a lot.
this will also make u feel better. take baths. remember. get it all out. every memory. remember the good times & the bad.
remember her hands. remember his voice. do not call anyone else to talk about this. just sit in your locked room with sade, zen, and those wonderful red roman candles & be broken. 2. when 3 days have past get out the godfather series. u should own this as well.
no person should have to rent the godfather or buy a Sade CD, these things should already be in your immediate possession. put on Part 1. Watch, listen, feel the drama. Get lost in the flick. dont think, just watch. If u have tapes, change tapes.
If u have DVDs watch the special features. Think about how great Mafia movies are. Think about how important family is. Think about loyalty & tradition & tenancity. Remember that there is more to u then romance, u have history, u have secrets, u have lies & deceit. u have loving, faithful family.
if u dont, u have friends who have now become family. long live the corleone family. find an italian market. eat sum gnochhi. its good. watch part 2 & 3. i know, 3 is kinda slow, but watch it too.
taste the bitter with the sweet. welcome balance. this is true love. Do this for 2 days 3.after 5 days. call a friend. bitch.
moan. cry. scream. tell it all. call your mama too if shes wise, maybe she'll give u good advice. if your mamas wacko then u have one more friend card.
call him/her & cry one more time. dont call them about it again. after the first call, they dont care. they want to, but they cant. u are repeating yourself, u are saying the same thing over & over. no one cares but u. even if they say they wanna hear about your feelings, they are lying, no one really cares but u. if u like addiction, drink sum, smoke some, fuck some & in 3 months youll be able to feel again.
if u are like me & more on the clean tip, repeat steps 1&2 but never ever step 3. u can also pray, mediatate, go hiking, etc. dont ask for advice though, just listen to yourself & wonder if the neighbors can hear u crying at nite. 4.on the 7th day, call the mufuckka who broke your heart & pretend you are over it. please dont beg or relive your 7 day diet drama. just listen to what (s)he has to say for 30 mins (no more) hang up & dont talk again for 3 months. happy dieting *sidenote: this diet is as safe & effective as the Atkins & South Beach Diet. 
