  feel so numb had my piano recital today and i messed up so bad, i couldnt even focus, i jus kept shaking and on top of that i was crying so yeaa didnt help at all. my piano teacher still clapped and many said "good job", stupid liars. i didnt hear a single word from my parents. my dad hasnt looked at me for 2 days i havent stopped shaking since friday, every move i make seems to be a mistake to them i hope i get to talk to mandeep today becuz hes the one person that makes me feel like im at the top of the world, and i jus..i feel so bad. i always mess things up my parents are dead for me. no more.. i love you mandeep. noor 
