  MH and SB? Holy shit folks, nothing this weird has come out of Canandaigua in a long time. Guess its time to finally confront those terribly twisted feelings of non-closure I always had with SB.
And to think, I was hoping he'd be hooking up with JH, because that would take a lot of pressure of seeing her on the 4th off of me. But whatever, kudos to MH and I hope he gets her to submit something to my magazine - that would be incredible. SB is: 1. The first girl I ever said "I Love You" to 2. The first girl I ever cheated on (thrice, with JH, SBr and KL) 3. The first girl I truely did love. 4. The only girl I ever respected and dated. I'm stupid - my whole deal in high school was to come across as some smooth fucking kid, and I managed to sidestep the whole issue of that little thing I call 'my emotions.
' I had the perfect setup with SB. It was January and I was still with JH, but had been talking to SB since like October. We broke up because of my first cheating incident. I hooked up with SBr (who, coincedentally, has a kid now and who's sister died in a car crash - weird). Anyway, we broke it off, but could never quite put the fire out. She was with Munn, I with JH.
Anyway, I gave her a ride home after school one day, and drove her out to her house, but only kissed her hand because I didn't want to appear as a cheater to her too. That night, I broke it off with JH and got back together with her. It was an incredible ride until about June, when I realized I'd be going to college and started to freak out. I cut bait...completely. No calls, no contact, no nothing. And it was nothing she did, it was just that I was consumed with the fear of leaving everything I had grown to know and preside over. I called her in July, said it wasn't working out, and hung up the phone. And I think thats why I'm creeped out that MH and SB are together. I mean, I know how awesome she is, and I'm sure she just got more awesomer when she went to college (she's 2 years younger than I).
And thus its the lamentations of someone who missed their chance - an epic theme that runs through my life... There's a lot of things I regret when it comes to life, but to girls, there's only 4: 1. Fucking things up with SH 2. Not talking to SL that fateful night at the Tick Tock when I had the chance 3. Dream Girl 2 - BS - Not picking up the obvious signs on that one.
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Getting involved with JH after the first rollercoaster ride in high school. So there it is folks - that list can only get better, as I add more and more weird stuff to it compliments of Houston, TX. Lates, Peaches 
