  I wish I am brave enough to face the truth and walk away. I wish I am confident enough to bear the pain and move on. I wish I am not afraid and take the risk. I wish I could accept the reality and live. I wish none of this happened and some that will happen. I wish I remember how I survived in the darkest moment and do it again. I wish to stop making excuses and do it. I wish to do something and not worry. I wish to quit being scared and find happiness. I wish it all can start over and be forgotten of pain but remember the mistakes to avoid next time around.
I wish to listen and agree with friends. The world is spinning and I am getting dizzy. Anger inside hides the pain and tries to fight it way out, giving me tears but I ignored my feelings. I am too proud to know what is wrong. I am too proud to even care. I am sorry for my little girl, knowing if I stay this way, she will suffer. But I am awfully too proud to admit that my friends are right. Someday, when I feel better, I will do the right thing for my little girl. I promise. I have been in the ugly situation before and I almost fell and couldn’t get up, but I did. Right now I need friends and support but then again, I need to be left alone. 
