  Got up at 4.30am to drive my bro to the airport and was quite surprised to find he was not awake. He was quite surprised too when I woke him up, he'd set his alarm wrong. I drank tea while he rushed around and just when we were going out the door he said "I think my bag's too heavy", so I got out the scales and sure enough it was 30 kilos!
He had quite a few textbooks in there. We tried to lighten it up but didn't have time so we just put it in the car and discussed various methods of lightening it - finally struck upon the solution of pulling out a larger, empty backpack in there, putting his smaller carryon into that, along with the heavy stuff from his suitcase like schoolbooks and toiletries. I hope he sorts it out - I told him not to be lazy and just empty stuff into a storage locker, leaving it for other brothers wife to pick up tomorrow when she takes Damien to the airport.
I also warned him not to 'take risks' in China. He laughed. He knows exactly what I mean and I bet he will anyway but I had to warn him - he can be so stupid sometimes just for the thrill of a challenge. Anyway the freeways are a fucking rush at 5am! I love driving so so so much. Now I have to stay awake for my centrelink 'information session' (whatever that is).
I just had my hotcakes and a hash brown, 2 hours till I have to be there. Last night at the family dinner I decided I wouldn't let my brothers wife get to me, so I set about ignoring her and talking about stuff she had no idea about, like asian politics with Raph and digital tv with Damien.
No one else was talking to her and she just kind of sat there looking lonely and then I felt really awful. I hate seeing people feel lonely even if I don't like them, especially if it can be avoided. There's no good reason for someone to be unhappy if they dont need to be - especially in the family dinner situation. So then I told her I liked her coat (it was really nice) and started chatting to her about makeup and showed her urlLink Strawberrynet and she was much happier. I dont know if I lack integrity or what but I know how shit it feels to be left out and if I can't stand it, why should anyone else?
But she wasn't a bitch or anything to me on that occasion and I felt so terrible deliberately ignoring after I saw how she was just sitting there. I just tried thinking about all the people I don't like, and if they were in that situation would I talk to them so they wouldn't feel alone? I'm afraid the answer was yes - to most of them. The only exception was ex cokehead friends and Steph, the latter because it would just be rescuing her and she needs to learn (if she hasn't already) to get up and talk herself.
I wish I wasn't such a pussy about people. I wish I could be a hardarse and just not care and I try hard not to but I can't help it. I can't help it when I see people unhappy - I dont want them to be because they don't have to be. 
