  I do not know where to begin at. I have allot of things to work out with my Man. Sometimes I just wish that He would see what I am saying. But I guess not. That is alright, I guess. I had and have screwed up so much lately that I do not know what to do lately. I am still getting offers from other Men. I do not tell them nothing and I blow them off. Because I do not know where I am at with my Man.
I have allot to do lately and I do not have much time for Him. I told Him how I felt and I guess that was wrong to do. I was just being open and honest and I get my ass jumped. I guess I am not supposed to think I guess or have any feelings. I do not know any more. I just been thinking allot that is all and it is getting me introuble with allot.
I do not have much to say or I might get in trouble for that too. I am going to see what happens next. I do not know. I am going to go now I am tired and did not get on the pc until later then I wanted too. I hate sharing a pc. Good night and Sweet or Sadistic Dreams. toy 
