  Ahh, its Sunday and I'm at work. No where else to go. The girlfriend did the breakup thing yesterday. That realy hurts not only because I miss her already but I'm living at her best friends house right now. She and I and he and his boyfriend were going to have a memorial day bbq tomorrow and then go swimming in his creek. Now I have to figure out what to do withmyself so as not to ruin their holiday. I've also been burning bridges with friends and friend links so right now I'm not sure what to do when i'm not hanging otu with my girlfriend and her friends.
makes for a rough weekend. That's as good a reason as any to be at work, its a shame no work is being done since the system i need to use is down. Would be nice to get a gmail account right now. Not that It would make these abandonment feelings go away, but it would be something nice in a low point. What else could go wrong this weekend? The house I'm currently trying to buy has more wrong with it than I thought and its going to cost more than I realized to get it and to fix it.
Spending five hundred dollars on the house just to give up and walk away seems like a waste of money. Its goign to happen though, its just a matter of getting nerve up to chat with the realtor and break the news to her and break off that business relationship. sigh, when did life become so difficult. shouldn't it be easier? didn't it used to be easier? 
