  title explains it all.. farkin day indeed..! he hurt me wif his words again, yesterday.. and it is somehow still affecting me.. cant stop thinkin abt it. fine. was in a veri foul mood wen i turned up for dance practice. nobody dared to talk to me. haha.
funny wen i think abt it though. lets get down to more serious stuff. cikgu commented on my dancing. "yani, saye tgk ur not ur usual self. awak bukan menari. drop all ur worries.
concentrate on ur dance". ok. juz den, aida took my prop by accident. for some reason, i flared up like i nvr did. she, d other dancers n cikgu all stared at me for a moment. apologised to her after tht. dance class ended.
he sent me an sms. quarrelled again. shall not write wat he actuali wrote. i'd feel hurt again. for some reason, i broke down! dammit!
nvr been like this before! hid it frm d others though. asked syaz for d remedy. 5 farkin sicks of it. dunno y n how i managed to consume so much. my average was like 3!
wat d hell. reali lost myself. cldnt find anyone to talk to. turned to hardi instead. nvr felt any better though. wat d fuck is wrong wif u, bitch?!
this is wat YOU wanted, dammit! are u regrettin it now?! fuck it! get hold of urself! i cant! u've got wat u wanted, he's made his decision.
n will no longer waste his time on a bitch like U..! am i regrettin it, NOW? i dunno. one thing i do noe though, after wat had happened to us.. after he's decided to forget me n move on.. realised how much i treasure him, how much he means to me and tht i cant lose him. since our first quarrel, keep having this feeling, this emptiness inside. oh well.
doesnt matter now anyway. u stupid bitch, ur realising all these onli after he's decided to forget u. for wat?! will it change d situation, anyhow??! i noe. im juz farkin stupid i guess. leaving for langkawi tmrw morng.
dunno wen i'll be back. i'll take this time to reflect n see if i can award maself d "bitch of d yr" award. wat the hell. will miss him. 
