  So, I can't believe I forgot to mention this yet, but I think I met the love of my life the other day. He came in to get travel shots, and I did not get the pleasure of administering them, another nurse snapped him up. However, I had to draw up some injections for someone else in the room he was in, and I heard him mention he was going to El Salvador to do construction. I asked him if he was going on a mission trip and he said "how'd you know?? " and i said "i don't know, i just did. " we had a moment. :) we made small-talk, but the clinic was busy and there wasn't time for a proper connection more than that one small moment. however, i have faith in moments. :) so let me just say....if anyone out there reading this blog is the love of my life who's going to el salvador...tarry no longer...hop on the white horse and come take me away!
i'm so glad it's a friday, and it's a 3 day weekend coming up. i have almost survived a week out of a nightmare (well, other than meeting my future husband, that is). i ate another apple this morning. i barely feel the effects. this saddens me! no, i do not fear the anti-aphrodisiac side effects of partaking in a pear, FOF...in fact, there is a reason i do not divulge in strawberries every morning. i simple have enough struggles without encouraging them! i read a list of signs of job burn-out yesterday and i'm pretty sure i had all of them.
i've begun to despise all people. this is another thing that saddens me. i need rest. i know somehow it can be found in Him but lately everything runs together into tragedy. sometimes i wish to slide along the surface again. and deep down, the despair fades to trusting that everything will be ok, and on the outer edge, pain is only restlessness. so if you add it all together and divide by the music singing somwhere in the middle...the compartments of perspective seem so small and insignificant. this is what keeps me clinging to Him. "he who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him. " psalm 126:6 
