  I just took my remeron. That's an antidepressant that functions as a sleeping aid when you take small doses. Sleeping is probably the key to everything for me. Or lack of sleep, rather. I've been an insomniac since I was an infant.
Talking to my mom about it recently, she told me that when I was little I used to hold my eyelashes open to stay awake. I asked her why I did this and she replied, "how should I know? You couldn't talk! " She's still bitter about the fact that neither of us slept for years when I was a baby. In fairness, I was a beastly difficult infant. Anyway, last year my therapist suggested that getting my sleep disorders under control would make a huge difference in my mental health.
I wasn't sure. I'd spent my entire life getting too little sleep and I didn't think it was a problem. I thought I was used to it. In retrospect I guess I was used to it but it was a lousy feeling. I'm much happier now that I try to sleep regularly. Healthier too. I'm not crazy about the remeron.
I take the soltabs which just dissolve on my tongue. This is terrific because I medicine tears up my stomach and with the soltabs I don't need to eat or drink milk or anything. But I don't like how much sleep I need to feel rested in the morning - 10 hours or more most nights. And I'd like to learn to sleep without it but no luck there at all. 
