  Ok so today I was talking with mel and she asked me if i still had true feelings for Pat. this really hit me hard. since we broke up no one has asked me that. well that got me thinking and all depressed and crap.
i guess its a good thing that no one has asked me till now, cause i honestly can't say that i know the answer. i can say however that i know that i truely did love him when we were going out. i can say that i know we won't go out again. i can say that i love having him as a friend. i can say that there will always be that spot in my heart for him that for a while anyways no one will be able to take over... not even you nate. something about him still sticks in my brain and i am not sure what that feeling is. i will always love pat just now its in a different way. its friend love. its ex. love we went out for two years!! that is a shit long time in high school anyways. it really got me thinking and now i don't know what to do. cause yes i do love nate he is an awesome guy but pat is always going to be there too.
at least until the right one comes along. aww mel why did you have to ask me that although i must say that i was thinking about it all afternoon and you just brought it to my concicous attention. well i g2g please feel free to make comments to this. luv ya always, Jen 
