  is everythin screwed up or is it just my screwed- up perception acting up on me?  heck,  i think i'm the one to blame cuz i'm definitely having big,
 enormous,  world- shaking,  insurmountable problems here. i simply cant concentrate on my chemistry enough.  =  well,  guess i might hav overstated my problems a teeny little bit but it's still a big heck of a problem to urs truly. i mean,  come on. a future med student havin study problems is a sure prerequisite for disaster ahead.
already i can feel deep within the chemical precursors that signify the decision to quit medicine. after all,  the world is only an illusion,  'maya' to our mortal lives. it is what we do in our lives that shall echo throughout eternity.
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 mayb i should apply for the post of the Architect.
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P then i might b able 2 control the external factors of my pathetic joke of a life.
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 to my dear reader,  pls bear with my melodramatic style of writin n we shall see how this big fat worm of a joel metamorphoses into a. err. who knows?  just wait n see.  urs truly,  me =
