  there is no food in my house. all we have is a huge box of goldfish, and i can only eat so much goldfish in one day. i didnt even eat anything at the senior "picnic" because i had to run around selling books (thanks yvonne). so all i've had today to eat is coffee, goldfish, and a graham cracker... anyway, today was nice. we really did not need to have a practice for baccalaureate... basically the gospel choir had a nice little rehearsal. i was surprised that we actually got our yearbooks today, but i am still mad that i'm not gonna get my pictures back until midsummer.
i'm disappointed with the yearbooks though. i was definitely expecting a lot more pictures of the senior class, especially from freshmen year. i know i gave them a lot more pictures than that, and they only used like 5 pictures to fill one page of our yearbook. overall i'm just not impressed and this insert we're getting better be GOOD. mr. mccluskey surprised me a lot when he brought some of us in his room and shut the doors and then gave us books. and he wrote nice notes in all of them.
i really appreciate him a lot. he wrote me (and everyone else) a page-long note and it made me start to cry. i've definitely enjoyed getting to know him, from jv volleyball to sophomore religion to senior religion - its all been great. and its starting to hit me how much i'm going to miss seeing certain people everyday. yvonne, for one. i really do miss her already.
i know i've seen her, but i think just knowing that i'm not going to be seeing her as frequently makes me sad. its weird but i've gotten closer to her this year than i have with other people over the last four years. i appreciate her friendship a lot. i always enjoy talking to her, and i have a lot of great memories with her from this year. i'm definitely looking forward to frolicking with her at allen's pond. how did that start anyway?
oh man i'm really going to miss her A LOT!! i just hope she's gonna be able to come visit me next year at ND - she's been so supportive of me going to ND and i feel bad that she cant go herself. and yvonne, i agree that high school SUCKED, but i still made some great friends during high school (you for one) then there's best friend #2. i wrote her such a long note last night.. its kinda weird how we became close. i just know i love her a lot and i'm gonna miss her a lot also. and she started crying in the cafeteria when she was signing my yearbook. i hate seeing people cry cuz it makes me start to tear up.
monica's note made me cry too. she's always been there for me, even when my family and the rest of my friends havent. and then last year was so crazy. seriously, me and monica were definitely excluded from everyone at pius. leeann was with matt, morgan and jackie were also in that circle, and jackie and sarah were close, and i think that's how erin became part of that crowd too. so that's when me and monica started to have playdates.
hahaha those are some good memories. anyway, i've never known monica to be extrememly sensitive or sentimental, and i did not expect her note to be so long or anything. but she was talking about how i was her best friend and how much she appreciates me and how sad she is that i'm leaving her next year but at the same time she's so excited cuz i'm going where i want to go. monica's been so supportive of me, and i love her so much. and leah... she looked so upset when i saw her today. i hate that she's going through family crap and that she's having problems with stupid friends.
brittiany told me that she ran away last night.. leah said she'd call me today to talk, so i hope she does. all i know to do is pray for her. i cant imagine what happened last night at her house, but i know its not good at all. i just wish her parents would stop being so immature and petty. leah deserves better than that 
