  Okies well good weekend for one but totally confusing. Guys can be so confusing at times and just send so many different vibes that are so&nbsp;hard to understand. I just wish I could like pluck into their minds and read their thoughts and understand everything they mean and what there trying to tell me. I mean just say it if you have something to say don't leave it in hints thinking the gurl will understand what your trying to tell her. JUST SAY IT! Then theres the part on their hints and thinking about what he meant by it.
If he was just saying it to get into your pants or if he was actually telling the truth! Aghhhhhhh guys suck right now but I mean you gotta love them! So anyways this is how my wonderful weekend was spent! &nbsp; Friday- Went grocery shopping and saw Brendan and we chatted for awhile and then I saw Shane and Kaleb and we talked for awhile to. Got to the trailor and set up everything and played with my mom's friends grandchildren for abit and just talked and stuff with friends and all. Then Brent (this guy I knew from before) decided that he wanted to go into K-town so we went and got Timmy's Ho's.
So we came back and went to see Josh Westover. Who was drunk as hell but funny. He's a nice guy. So then me and Brent decided to go back into K-town where we saw one of my old bf's, Brad,&nbsp;who I haven't seen in awhile, who he knew and we chatted and what not and he was looking good and he told me I look good to. It was nice seeing him! So then Brad drove me back to the campsite and I went to bed bc I had to work the next day.
Which I barely got any sleep cause my dad was snoring all night! &nbsp; Saturday- Went to work which was a long day but got payed $184 which was nice. Then I came home and took a shower and headed back to the campsite. I took the kids to the park and played with them for abit. That night we had a camp fire and sang and what not and then Josh and his friend Jeff came over and joined us and man hilarious the two of them together. We were all laughing forever.
Then Brad came and chilled for abit. Everyone else went to bed except me, Brad, Brent, Josh, Jeff, and Marcel so we decided to go to the park and chill there and we had some good laughs. Brad left and then we went back to Josh's camper and chilled there all night and drank and laughed and did card tricks and had a great night. Marcel was hilarious. We were laughing the hardest. Didn't get a wink of sleep all night!
&nbsp; Sunday- So then early in the morning the 4 of us decided to go and get Timmy Ho's and what not and then went back to the trailor and chilled. Marcel and Brent went to play horse shoe's while Josh and me saw Lou and went to my trailor and had some breakfast. Then for the rest of the day we were chilling at a friends across the street and decided we were all going to go boating. Which was so fun and we swam and what not and had good laughs, altho I thought I was going to die with the way he was driving lol. Josh was going crazy all screaming and having a good time. So we came home and went to my trailor and got something to eat and to tell my mom I was going to Josh's.
We got to his house and put on a movie and both of us fell asleep instantly. We woke up at 2 to Josh getting a cramp and freaking out lol. &nbsp; All in all it was a great weekend. My mom and brother love Josh which is very hard to believe that my brother likes him bc he never likes anyone I like or am dating, not to say that Josh and me are even going to get that far, but let's just say I'd like to see if it happens. We were together all weekend and had a great time together and we flirted and cuddled and touched and had fun. We are friends and I guess I really never thought of him as someone I would date but I guess right now I'm just getting to know him and seeing where things go and what happens.
I'm not going to rush into this like I do every relationship. I'm going to take it slow. I mean for one right now I don't even know what he wants. He was kind of making hints at me that he wanted more but then he would say something else that would make me think. Were suppose to get together tomorrow night so I guess I just have to see how that goes. &nbsp; I want to tell him what I think about this but I'm scared he's going to run off.
I guess I just think it's way to early to even say anything to him about how I feel. But then on the other hand what have I got to lose? &nbsp; It's funny bc my mom totally trusts him even tho he's a lot older then I am. He's 25. I mean I feel comfortable with him which I don't feel easily. Honestly age doesn't matter it's just a number.
Gurls mature faster then guys anyways so really it's like I think like him bc gurls mature faster. He's mature tho at times&nbsp;and thats what I need, someone who isn't going to be stupid and retarded. I just don't know what to say to him. How to tell him what I think and what I would want, like where I want things to go. I don't know. I just wish he would say something or there was a simple answer to this.
I wish things didn't have to be so hard. I mean I don't expect anything from him. I don't but I would like things to proceed farther and if we don't date that decision would be on his part. He's a lot like me and it's just different&nbsp;with him. But I guess all I can do as of right now is just see what happens. I hope things go well, maybe something will happen tomorrow.
Chow and Laaaaaaates! 
