  Well, I've been away for quite awhile now, but have some downtime since it's the weekend. It's drizzling outside and the temperature is in the lower 60's.
As I look out my 8th floor window, I can truly appreciate a rainy afternoon. Lately, life has been moving a bit quickly. So, I welcome a little calm every now and then. I'm not sure why I love days like this, but they're alright. I guess it goes back to me liking things that others tend to dislike. Don't know why but I am partial to the simple things.
I rarely ever wear clothes w/ stripes or checks(never), can watch Forensic Files for hours, and actually love a lil' poetry here and there. I should write again. I actually got a standing ovation for my last piece. Anyway, as I've said before people always have two sides. The other "me" loves to do happy hour, freestye, and act a damn fool. Guess it's normal to get a little crazy sometimes. It provides for a healthy balance. I've been thinking about meeting the 1/2 brother that I never got the opportunity to meet before.
It's cool though. He's 4 years older than me, which means Dad wasn't cheatin', so I'm all good with that. He lives in the DC area and is an airplane pilot. I was blown by this. It ain't exactly a lot of brothas who R doing that. Wonder if he looks like Dad, me, or my sister? Guess time will reveal. Been thinking about the law and what I plan to do in the coming months.
I'm not 100% sure about anything. I know I plan to be successful, but I'm not dying for a few $$$. A lot of attys leave here from heart attacks at a young age. It just happened to a successful lawyer back home. Another had a quad-bypass and he's only about 39. That worries me. I want to be able to provide for my family and be happy at the same time. I was once told, you sleep 8 hours, work 8 hours, and the other 8 belong to you. So, if you're going to be working for 1/3 of your life, be sure to do something that you enjoy.
Otherwise it's not worth it. Brilliant thought...yet somewhat fictional. The lady working the window at Popeye's might not be extremely happy with her position, but being happy on the job is minute when you've got to put food on the table. Don't know where I was going with that, but I plan to enjoy my job. Lord knows I've paid the price to at least have an oak desk and good ass retirement plan! In closing, the kicking it thing has slowed a bit. I might not be built for it in the long run.
I actually ended up losing 2 lbs in the process and got off track a bit. I'm saying it now...that shit ain't worth it. I'm too "laid back" for that. Have I been fakin' over the past few weeks. Pretending to have fun? Did those days pass me by in my early 20's? Anyway, I'm gettin' back this week and will resume cooking, working out and sticking to the plan.
Focus, cause these damn distractions.... 
