  Ok, so it's not that bad. I just don't like being treated like I'm incompetent. At least my fellow interns are in the same situation, and if I tell myself it's for the safety of the birds that makes it better. Nothing like delusion to lull you into a false sense of complacency, eh? Stay tuned for my findings on the creation vs. evolution debate.
At the advice of one Elizabeth George, author of A Woman After God's Own Heart I am starting my "5 Fat Files" on topics that I will read, research, and learn about and become an expert on, for not only the betterment of myself but as a ministry to give to other people. She advises sticking to spritiual things so keep my head and focus in the right places, but APOLOGETICS is a huge area, so I'm starting with the whole creation/evolution thing because it interests me and as a scientist I don't feel learned enough about it to defend myself persuasively. I haven't really started yet, but my plan is to outline a lot of what I find here. I will eventually enable my readers to comment on my posts, but I'm not ready for the potential repercussions of that. Be patient with me, and hopefully we'll learn together! Picked up a book at the library yesterday (yes, I actually found a decent one ON SITE at that dinky library! ) called The Question of God It's supposedly a purely objective presentation of Freud and C.S. Lewis' conflicting philosophies on God, Death, Sex, the Meaning of Life, etc. I'll let you know how it reads. The preface was intriuging anyway. While I'm already fairly set in my beliefs I want to find out more on both these men and see what they had to say.
Sadly Freud's athiesm stemmed mostly from his problem with that of suffering, an argument even I can rebut. So we'll see. Another fascinating albeit long read was Jared Diamond's Guns, Germs, and Steel . A VERY thorough work on the histories of human societies, why the Europeans came to America and not the other way around, why Australian Aborigianl tribes still live in huts and hunt even though they've been around longer and have had ample opportunity for advancement, etc etc.
Comes from an evolutionary standpoint but is interesting nonetheless. If you'd like to learn more about Elizabeth George or her husband Jim and their ministries, check out www.ElizabethGeorge.com or www.JimGeorge.com They have links to each other's websites of course too. Enjoy! 
