  S forgot that J, our daughter, has Violin Lessons this morning before school. Wonderful. Which put me a half an hour to an hour behind schedule for getting out of the house in time. But wait, it gets better. Y's ex-husband lets us do laundry over at his house, providing we let him know beforehand what day we will be coming over. Y forgot to call him earlier this week when I said that I would be doing laundry on Wednesday to tell him and make sure that was okay. So on the plus side, I don't have to try and gather, sort, and pack all the laundry before getting my kid off to school, in addition to being behind schedule.
So as if that weren't bad enough... I told Y earlier this week that I'd be seeing D on Tuesday morning, (Yesterday), and of course, she doesn't remember when I try to talk to her about what we did yesterday. I swear I might as well not even talk anymore. It's not like anyone listens to me anyways. What really sucks is that I was in a really good mood last night, due to a fantabulous phone conversation I had with D before coming back from Pagan Meetup, even thought the meetup itself had been kind of lame, until I came home. *sigh* I come home to Y and S, cuddled up all over MY side of the bed. WTF? I've been having issues with their whole physical contact thing ever since S told me that he loved Y, too. Coming home to find them all over each other on my side of the bed wasn't conducive to keeping my mood "good".
The meetup. Jeeze. I didn't want to be there. All I could think about was how much I'd rather be with D than hanging out there. My heart wasn't in it. With D leaving to go to his summer internship this summer, I just wanted to spend time with him. Of course, he's got a final today that he had to study for last night, so it wasn't possible. Which would have really bummed me out if it hadn't been for the fantabulous phone conversation. He said some really nice things. ;-) For starters that I was such a distraction not only when I was around, but even after I left, that he wouldn't be able to concentrate.
:-D He said he liked giving me shit for thinking too much about stuff, but when I started to offer not to do that anymore, he fell all over himself telling me that he liked me just the way I was and for me to not do that. ;-) When we talked about how high maintenence I am, he said that it wasn't as if he had to carry the full brunt of maintaining me himself, because Y and S help (a lot, really, for all I bitch about them).
I made a comment like, Yeah, you'd probably be like "I can't handle this crazy bitch all by myself!". And then he came off with, "Well, I'd try..." Which made me feel all warm and fuzzy. Although I hadn't planned on relationship building with my very first foray in to open relationships... To be honest, originally, I figured it'd be best if D and I just fucked, got it out of our systems, and went back to being friends.
Friends who sometimes fuck. But S holding off on giving me permission for as long as he did caused things to build a little higher than I think they would have. It's crazy. But I think I've got atleast one foot in the door of being in love with D. I didn't really want to fall in love with anyone other than S and maybe Y, (still in love with S, for those who are getting confused... ), But it seems more and more that it's inevitable. Unless I decided to stop seeing him altogether, which I'm not willing to do, naturally. People reading this might be confused. It's kind of like coming in on the middle of a converation... But I think if I tried to put all the back story up first that it would take too long and I'd never get around to venting about my problems/joys.
Oh, and if the timing could be better... S is possibly taking a business trip up to Nevada next week. Which would leave me free and clear to spend a TON of time with D. Of course, Y's kids are leaving next week to go to Oklahoma, so there is a good chance that she will be in a really foul mood because she's going to miss her kids.
And of course, I'm not going to be in the greatest of moods due to D's leaving... So it will definitely be an interesting week. Of course, Y's upset that S won't be here to comfort her. And then she wonders why I get irritated about her lack of being in love with me. How on earth can she fall in love with someone when she focuses all her attention on someone else???? Ack. Time to take the kid to her violin lessons. Bleh. Until next time. Delairen 
