  What a confusing weekend it has been. I left on Saturday kind of "okay" with my a.m. conversation with S. But, 2 1/2 hours, in the car, all alone, leaves one with a great deal of "think time. " And boy did I think! And I keep thinking. And the more I think, the more pissed off I get.
I want to know why everything I ever say to S seems to be said while we are drinking. I want to know why, once again, when I do tell a guy how I feel - it's too late. Kym made a good point. Two people can be PERFECT for each other, but if the timing is wrong, things will not work out. S's timing was wrong and now my timing was wrong. I need to talk to him, and tell him that I will wait, but I can't promise how long.
I feel that we are PERFECT for each other...and it makes me sad that we can't be together. "Love Has Past..." I shed a tear You were so near And now you're gone the reason...me You have moved on As I sit and watch You are one in a million And my chance has past I'll wait for you For how long, I know not The days may pass But it's you who I want I love who you are Amazing and strong... 
