  Well, I just read Marie's response to all of this. I am quite greatful that she is such and understanding person. But now, I don't know what to do, I am more confused than I believe possible, I think I will retreat into the protection I call my room, for I sahll probably continue working on my book and just ignore life. I must have time to take all of this in, I need to figure things out before I continue on my journey. 
