  Marriage has problems. It isn’t always happy or exude a fairytale existence. But that doesn’t mean I’m anti-marriage. I’m just sometimes anti-MY-marriage. When discussions of divorce and child custody come up ... well, that’s some serious shit.
I have my own lawyer and am now well versed in these types of laws. Quite frankly, I’m far too young for this. So Josh and I had a LOOONG heart to heart last week. Did the talk work? I don’t know, only time will tell. But it has to be an effort from both of us and while I feel like I’ve been trying to fix things for quite some time, I feel Josh has sloughed on his part. And it took me scaring the shit out of him to get through to him. Stephanie knows a lot of detail about our relationship and she’s shared a bit of it with Spencer. He asked her, "Do they ever do anything romantic for each other? " I was floored because, well, it’s been awhile.
We’ve been so mad at each other for so long, that we’ve forgotten what that means. The other day, I mentioned to Josh that he should get me flowers. Why? Because I like them. That’s it, just because I like them. Last night, when I got home, he handed me a bouquet of daisies ... just because. And he got some GOOD lovin' ... see how it works? 
