  GO Pistons!! Tonight is game 3 and i really hope detroit beats the Lakers. Im not the biggest basketball fan but i dont like the lakers at all. Anyhow, today i SHOULD hear back from Rhode island so i will know if im visiting them or not this weekend. I also will hear from the Springfield hospital about what all they have to offer me. I REALLY cant wait to find some closure in all of this and take care of this immediately so i can get on with my life. Both places are going to be an extremely good oppurtunity but deep down i feel i will be going to Rhode Island. Springfield is nice, very nice, but i just think once i physically SEE Rhode island, i will be wanting to go there. Anyhow, lets discuss something today. Hrmmmmm what to talk about. Ive recieved yet another email to me based on "Run Away". Im glad it makes sense to some and im glad someone is actually inspired by something i write in this blog. "Run Away" was based on some thoughts i had at one time, a very crucial turning point of my life even. Running away is often seen as weakness and falling short BUT i reallythink if you run away yet return a better person, you have truly accomplished something and as i said before, you will love yourself more in the end.
Ok, Thursday morning..... I slept good, im rejuvenated, gotta lotta energy and dunno how to waste it. I really just wish Rhode Island would call damnet so we can get this straightened out. I really wanna get this ball rollin so i can get on with it. I cant wait for this weekend since me and haneen are going on yet another trip. Not having something to worry about would help me out lots.
I kinda wish i knew where i would be job wise by this weekend but thats not gonna happen. That would take a huge burden off my shoulders but oh well, such as life.I can just see me drivin a big Uhaul truck 1200 miles, cant you?? I would be all singin all the way across the US. The 2 terms that come to mind right now are this..... I am either an Aislingeach pronounce AES LEN GEAH or a Sundancer. Aislingeach is a dreamer... whats your dream? Right now i dream of in 1 year i look back and seeing i made the best decision for me and i am entirely successfull for doing so. I see me and Haneen honestly not together but best friends throughout life. I see the contentment i have for what my life is still becoming and what i have become. I also see myself loving the new chage of scenery and my new surroundings. A sundancer.... one who sings in the rain and dances in the sun. Take straight from a song, a sundancer is "Set apart, running free, sundancer...dancing around me. " Basically the whole song is based on someone observing a free spirit she wants to be like but cant...
Mainly due to her uptight lifestyle. Sundancer feels the true light and equilibrium of the earth and all its inhabitants and he/she flows throughout everyday. I really feel that right now i am more of the Aislingeach than the sundancer but i would love to be both. The sundancer is out of my reach due to me worrying so damn much lately. Other than that, life is good :-p Set apart..... runnin free..... sundancer, dancing round me Aislingeach.... whats your dream??? Jason 
