  it has just hit me that in a matter of a few short months i will have been single for a year. if you don't count the 3 week attempt at desperate reconcilliation with JT last January, of course.
this is just about the time where i start to feel ready for another try with some new mr. wonderful. yet i don't. need i wait till it has officially been a year? i've finally grown weary of one night stands (for the most part) so i suppose that's progress. however, what does my "thing" with Craig constitute? i know for certain that it's got the shelf life of a tomato.
i turned down lunch with him today (to be honest, i was simply scared that i would have to pay for it) and might see him tomorrow night, or not at all before i leave on saturday. i'm scheduled for a wax, and then to see mr. kellogg tomorrow, but might postpone. afterall, we met a couple of weeks ago, and he has called me only twice. there doesn't seem to be any urgency on his part, so i think things can wait a couple more weeks.
why do i feel that any time i spend with craig before i go will be the last i see of him? something tells me that once i return... energized and feeling more like myself, i will be less and less tolerant of his bullshit. but then, hasn't that been what he's asked for all along? 
