  so I talked with one of my best friends here at school today and feel really bad. you know, sometimes the right thing to do and the right attitude isn't the popular one. I'm starting to realize that some of the people in the program enjoy forming elite groups where they actively and openly leave other people out. these other people are some of the best people one could ever meet, but this elite group of the popular kids won't have anything to do with them.
lately ive been thinking that those who exclude others, those who hate on others, and those who roll their eyes at others are really rolling their eyes and hating on themselves. dont get me wrong. ive been guilty of these thoughts and behaviors. but i think i need to change. theres a lot of unacceptance in the program. its almost like you have to be kind of a slacker and pretend not to take things too seriously in order to fit in with the popular kids.
im starting to think that i dont care if i get shunned and sent into exhile, as long as i do what is right. im starting to realize that more and more people in this program are truly fucked up. everyone has their problems, this we all know. however, in this profession of clinical psychology, i think we hold a responsibility to our clients and to the integrity of our profession to have our shit together.
we need to be stable. we need to make responsible decisions, and when we dont, realize the mistake. we need to be good citizens. we dont need to be fucking our classmates and slacking heavily and forgetting morals and forgetting reason and treating people like shit and lying and being incredily selfish. im ranting, but im ranting the truth. shape up or ship out, clinical students. 
