  Hmm.. all right. im going to spill everything out now. its not like he will read this. first up, about my feelings for asso, i think it might be infatuation. i think im soo dumb, i cant differentiate true love from crush. but then again, you cant blame me.
i didnt experience true love before. bleah. i sound so damn desperate. i assure myself, I am Not despo for him. aniwae, he said he has a target already, and he's going to go after her probably end of this year or next year. im burning with curiosity.
really.. he said it before too, that girls with loong rebonded hair and good complexion and not sporty catch his eyes. i really wonder, does he think that all sporty girls are butches? or violent? or tomboyish?? hmmph.. darn it. he really got sth up his sleeves.
i just know it. im really curious about his crush. a small part of me really hopes its me, but then again, i dont fit his description of course. stupid me. im not gd looking, dont hv smooth complexion, dont hv looong rebonded hair and definitely am sporty and not pale. i mean, who am i kidding?
sheesh. stupid him...urgh 2nd up, the more i get to understand her, the more i don t understand her. sound paradoxical, but well, i realise that's more to her than her usual family and friends' problems. i @@ the real her, the more i get to know her, e more i realise how smart she really is. how cool headed she is. how intellectual she is.
how... the list could go on and on. and im not surprised di is so over her. i mean, those with eyes can @@ right? LOL. im blabbling. as usual.
haiz. 3rd, im getting real lazier and lazier by each day. i promised myself to follow my schedule for hols but i didnt today. bleah. i must stop being a procastinator. right now.
tomorrow i shall do everything and finish what im supposed to do. by tomorrow. come on, im not that bad right? right. 4th, im still sick. but then, mum's words made me wonder whether i imagine it all up or not.
is it because of stress or plain lazy? my not going to school has already attested to it. hmmph.. 5th, whatever that i said..is crap. not really... haiz. i still like him. esp since he just msg me.
even though its just a forward msg. but i hv a nagging feeling that he's just using me. they say women really think a lot. i think so too. hmmph.. but hey, im trying to be a lady here. so yeah :) im unique k.. 
