  What would you do if one of your bestest friends told you he felt more for you then just a friendship, and that he can no longer remain your friend because he can only have you all or nothing? I have a best friend, whom I love beyond belief. He is one of the greatest friends I have ever had and the fear of losing him tears at me everyday. But I know how he feels for me and has felt, I try so hard to respect his feelings; as he does mine. But we live on the complete opposites of the USA, for one. I know "true love" knows no boundaries, but still.
Now there is this issue that he can't just be my "friend" anymore, its tearing at him in and out everyday. I know what this means and it kills me. I don't know why I can't feel the same way on the same level with him, because he probably is my soulmate. HOW THE HELL DID WE WIND UP LIKE THIS!!! You are my best friend, you know me - every inch of my soul. I would do anything for you but now you are telling me you can't do it anymore.
Am I angry, no. Am I hurt? Of course. I love you, I always have, but I can't love you the way you love me. Believe me if I could I would not be sitting here at the moment. Do I want to lose you, hell no.
But if I have to in order for you to be able to live happily every day for the rest of your life, I would make that ultimate sacrifice for you! You have sacrificed so much for me, and I know that. I know you don't want this, to have to let go and walk away from me. I know you, you don't want this. But I understand you when you say that if I can't return the love you long from me, you have to. I could never be angry with you, but I will not lie and say that this doesn't hurt.
Its like being told you are dead, only to learn you are alive and I can't ever speak to you, to share your life with you again. You said you have never had to act so brash in selfishness like this before, and I know. But you were my friend, my best friend. You weren't some made up being, you were real. You were real to me. And now I don't have you anymore, or at least left with the feeling because I don't feel for you what you feel for me on a romantic level.
It hurts to love some one, and to especially to love some one from afar - I know this. But trust me when I say it hurts more to lose them, when you could have always had them somehow in your life. I loved and I lost, God did not take him from me, God only called him home; and I still sit to this day after all these years and wonder if he knew how much I loved and cared for him! I walked away from him, because when you love some one sometimes you have to let them go. If I would have know he was going to die a week later I would have never ever walked away. But we can't tell the future, that's why we live to take risks.
I understand what you have to do and why, my beloved friend, but know that walking away is harder then remaining. Because you are forever filled with wonder and what if's, and only God knows when you will see or hear from that person again. I know this because I live it everyday of my life. I only warn you because I wouldn't wish this torment on anyone. You've never loved if you've never lost. If I have to lose you I will forever be pained, but know that if you ever need me I will forever be here for you.
No matter when and no matter what. I will never cut myself away from another friend again, because I would rather have you in my life then to not have you at all. You do what you have to my sweet friend, but know I am always here. 
