  I'll try to cheer up, I promise... but yesterday's viewing was tough! I sat in utter disbelief, imagining his chest move up and down as if he were sleeping.. people I didn't know arrive in two's every half hour or so.. they sat in silence at first.. then got progressively louder as the evening went on..
Some asked each other who my sister and I were.. and what we were doing at the front... I should have turned around and asked the same question myself.. if you don't know I'm related to him, you probably should not be tainting the air with inquisition.. you should probably be on your way out! He looked peaceful for the first time in over 3 years... his lips looked unnaturally closed, and his withered face looked rosy and plump!
The sight of him would have sent my grandmother in a frenzy, I'm sure... I'm just glad she chose to stay home.. she will see him one last time before the actual funeral back home in Portugal, one final goodbye! How do you ever say goodbye to your companion of 53 years.. your husband, father to your children, friend and confidante! God bless my grandmother, and her superhuman strength.. she is my superhero.. her determination and strength amazes us all!
I wish you well, grandma.. you're my rolemodel! I'm worn and tired... I'm not sure whether the work i have done today is correct, or accurate, but I'm plugging away regardless.. just looking forward to the end of the day so i can go home and help out my mom... Thanks to all that have shown their support on this time of need.. Your kind words mean the world to me! 
