  Wow, I think I'm actually like....gettin better, ya know? I've had problems lately with me worrying too much and/or being too serious. But the past few days, I've been doing pretty good. Surprising as it may sound, I'm actually not being an asshole these past few days. As every day passes, I get more and more relaxed with...well....life. With every day, I get more into the groove of being laid back and relaxed and comfortable with how my life is. I really don't know how to explain it, life is just so much less stressful and harmful to me. Harmful, that is my new adjective for life. It's harmful. But it's not like you can deny that. Too much or not enough of anything is harmful. So how do you know when you have too much or not enough of life? Well, for me, it wasn't enough life.
I was just so slow and dull about everything I did, and today I was down at the creek with Nicole, and I just had this epiphany and it hit me like a million fucking bricks, seriously. I'm excited about life now. I know it's only been a few hours, but I can't get it out of my head. I just got the new Avril Lavigne CD from Nicole, and uploaded it onto my computer, and I plan on giving it back to her tomorrow.
This is the 3rd CD I've listened to in the past few days. And this is definitly the best. Lostprophets was good. Maroon 5 was better. The new Avril Lavigne, "Under My Skin", is absolutely awesome. All you people that say "what a fag, why's this dude listenin to some chick? " This "chick" has some awesome lyrics. And this "chick" has some good fucking music. Props to you, Avril.
Along with the CD, Nicole is letting me borrow "A Child Called It" and "The Lost Boy", both by Dave Pelzer. I'm excited about reading them, I really am. After reading "Please Stop Laughing At Me..." by Jodee Blanco while I was in Williamstown, Massachusetts, I'm especially excited about reading books that Nicole lends me, because that ("Please Stop Laughing At Me...") book I read that weekend was awesome. Well, I'm gonna go upstairs and read for a while, then call Nicole and stuff. Bingo, yo! (My new saying) I'm outta here! 
