  there is no particular reason for the title of this post. i just happen to think it's a cool quote. i forget who said it and i don't have the debut album of the manics here so i could use that as an aid. that's where the quote is from. i think it was linked with motorcycle emptiness in the sleevenote... i'm tired today.
i don't get it, i slept almost 8 hours last night, which is almost twice what i've slept lately - how can i be tired now? maybe it's because of yesterday's trip to the lighthouse... it involved a lot of sitting, first in the bus (as we went to other places before going to the lighthouse) and then in the boat. i don't travel well. when we got there it was amazing. i didn't want to come back at all... the guide we had lives there almost alone for 9 months of the year (or that's how i understood it) and he was such a nice man... he looked like someone who really belonged there and was happy. i guess he was. i would love to live like that. if only i could still get online if i wanted to... i wouldn't have a problem cutting out physical encounters with other people. maybe i would come out of there in the winter though, as its pretty rough living there then from what he told us. but other than that, i wouldn't mind looking at the view from the top of that lighthouse every single day. and think of all the exercise i would get climbing up there - it was 178 steps. climb that a few times every day, and walk around the island in addition... i'd say that's pretty good!
i don't have much else to say now it seems. 4 hours of work left, then it's the weekend. yay, i suppose. or not. dad's going to be around so maybe not so much of a yay. meeting anne tomorrow, i hope that's good. i'm sure it will be. need a refill on the laxies department too, that has to be taken care of today. i'm going to visit a new pharmacy now and i hope they sell metalax. toilax is acting weird on me. i can't specify because i don't really know what's weird with it. all i know is that i feel weird. i've been taking only 20 a day now, instead of 25. it seems to have some effect as despite binging i haven't really gained for the past 3 days or so. a bit of food weight here and there but that's what laxies are there for eh? the real problem with toilax is that you the largest packet size is 100. metalax has 200, which means i don't have to buy it as often.
it tastes yuckier though. decisions, decisions... ok. talking about laxies made me feel ill. i think i will finish my lunch hour now by going to the bathroom. i just want to state in the end that i really suck. no, really. blegghhhh. 
