  ok, i give up. i just wasn't meant to eat at all. i think i have only ever digested any food by accident - i don't really have a metabolism and i don't use up any energy at all. everything i take in makes me gain weight and it's never coming off. i will be this weight until i die. unless i eat something and then of course i will be even fatter. i wonder if i can go without food forever and ever? *bangs head against the wall until is bleeding all over the place* -_- 
