  so, i am at work. so, i can't be bothered to work. this is nothing new. my stomach is growling at me. it's empty, because it had nothing put in it yesterday and hasn't had anything put in it today either.
it's still early but from the looks of things this is the current trend. &nbsp; i have lost 1.4 stone in 4 days. that's 8.3 kilograms and 18.3 pounds. that's also madness. how can a person lose 1.4 stone in 4 days? especially when she has binged (real binges, not fake binges) on 2 of those? well, i will make some wild guesses. first, water weight. second, food weight. third, long and destruction-enriched binge episode of almost 2 weeks ending. four, two fast days. maybe that accounts for some real weight loss... maybe a pound. i dont care. &nbsp; in my body, all laws of body functions are defied. and i'm still overweight, even by clinical standards.
but not for long - not by clinical standards. of course according to the real standards i have to lose about 24.4 kilograms still. if i was to follow the phony clinical ones, that number would be 10.9. that's a bit less. that's also self-desception. i'm not going to fall for that. &nbsp; long way to go. to anywhere, really. &nbsp; O_O 
