  few random thoughts going through my head right now: do you know what i hate? when you're driving and you see a light thats green, so you start to speed up, careful not to go too fast, but as soon as you get within reach, it turns yellow on you so you have to stop. i want to yell at the light and say cant you just let ONE more car through?! idiot. then when i sit here and think about it i just get even more mad at myself for getting mad at..a light..wow thats stupid.
but i'm sure we've all been there. at least i hope we have. i think that i have spent the year trying to impress people and be friends with people that when i reflect back on it, i have no clue why. i think i neglected the people that are really awesome and who love me a lot in exchange for stupid people who really only want whats best for themselves.
i dont know. i'm a little down right now. most likely if you're reading this you're a good person, the good one. actually you defintely are. but do you know what i mean? it's just like you look up to somebody so much and you want to be friends with them, that you go out of your way to do so, but by the end of it you realize that no matter what you do, you'll never be what you want to be to that person. does that make sense? i dont really know what i'm talking about. aside from a few bad apples though, i have to say i have the world's most awesomest friends ever.
thanks guys, you all mean a lot to me. i wrote my creative paper for ms denny's class and *gasp* i actually enjoyed writing it. yea..crazy. i ENJOYED english? ms denny's english homework? crazy stuff. i'm so excited for summer. i can literally taste freedom. elizabeth daniels said something to me today that i've taken to heart. you have to try everything once. (everything within reason i.e. no having drinking yourself to the point of alochol poisioning..etc) and so this summer, i'm not holding back.
i'm going to take chances. i'm gonna make mistakes. i'm going to just let myself go! it'll rock. it's sad because the 2 people i spent my summer with last summer will be gone for the first month. but hey..i still have the most amazing girl to spend my summer with MIRIAM MCSPADDEN ..cant think of a better way to spend my time then with a girl that i could just sit with in silence and be content with.
and there are a lot of fish in the sea to hangout with aside from those who venture to say..new york for a ballet workshop. i dont know who would do that kinda thing? this is becoming a long entry. i'm tired now. i think i'm going to make a few phonecalls and then hit the hay. do you guys ever use that expression? hit the hay? because yes, i am a needy person, if you do happen to read this, could you comment?
it makes me feel better about myself. and you know even if i check back on this and there are still 0 comments i will continue writing because..well..those with ADD need a place to put there random thoughts down on. good night. i love you all. especially one girl in particular.. 
