  Horoscope Today... You already know that you don't have to express every emotion that you feel. [I don't? wow. ] But this doesn't mean that you shouldn't feel them. [I only recently figured out how to express them. How is it that you feel a strong emotion without expressing it? How do you not react to a punch in the stomach? ] If you bury emotions, you will end up being controlled by your fears instead of by love. [what if I don't want to be controlled at all? ] Even in the workplace, you'll be pulled between the safety of rational thoughts and the vulnerability of feelings.
[rational thoughts? in the workplace? You haven't lived until you've worked with 7 other women who all take Premarin (it's hormone for menopause)] Logic may create security, but it won't cure loneliness. [So Vulcans are lonely? Poor Spock] Last night we had dinner at Applebees. The girls enjoyed their mac n' cheese. I had a fabulous steak with bleu cheese and great big beer (They come in pints?). Greg's 92 year old grandmother had us worried but her results came back and she'll be fine.
Whew, sigh of relief. She's headed off the Washington DC today. I so admire her spunk. We call her Grape. Her husband died 18 months ago and she has been spending almost all her time traveling to see her family - Albuquerque, Washington DC, Salt Lake City, Switzerland (yes I said Switzerland) Alabama and Colorado. It's like she's trying to get in all the travel she can. Well, hell good for her. She was sort of stuck taking care of her husband for the last 15 years so she SHOULD enjoy herself as much as she can.
The really amazing thing about her is that she takes no meds on a daily basis - at the age of 92...now how rare is that? She taught first grade for 45 years, raised 3 boys who grew up to be fabulous men and PhDs all of them, all while her first husband was bedridden with Parkinsons. She cooks like you wouldn't believe and she doesn't judge. She will certainly tell you what she thinks if you ask her but she's open to more than one solution to a problem.
She is a shining example of how to live a happy life. I have asked her often for advice and never managed to follow it. All of her grandchildren would rather die than disappoint her. And the funny thing is, the thing they don't know is...they couldn't disappoint her. Because she loves them for who they are not what they accomplish. To be so vibrant at 92... Had lunch with Shrew-baby yesterday. The show is coming together nicely, I can't wait to see it. I listened. Sometimes, that's all you really need is someone to listen to you, really listen. Then she listened to me. We're sort of stuck in the same place. She has the most amazing amber eyes and a wit that is so sharp.
On the inside though, she's as soft as a goose down pillow. I find her company so very, very, very comforting. This better living through chemistry thing isn't working out so well...maybe I need better chemistry....almost didn't get out of bed this morning. Tossed and turned all night. Sleep is overrated. My mom isn't coming to the show. I convinced her not to...no point in driving 8 hours for a two hour show on your one day off in 14, is there? I'll send her a tape. I think I am supposed to get the CD ROM with the pictures from the show today. My brother has taken off with his on/off again girlfriend. She's a bit of hippy. Well, she's a hippy.
No doubt about it. They are leaving for a 3 week *vacation*. Heading to Mount Rushmore and other sites yet unseen. She says she's going to dry him out and then see what happens. Having my brother around, drinking was just killing my parents, literally killing them. The stress...my dad's BP through the roof. My mom...losing her hair. And our family has great hair. So Mom told him when/if he comes back and he drinks she's throwing him out. Now she's beating herself up over saying that to him.
I am trying to reassure her she said the right thing and I hope that if they get to that situation that she'll follow up on her words. It's a tough situation. I am amused that the name urlLink Griffin is so intricately involved in such a courageous act of rebellion. If my friend Griffin were actually there he probably would have dumped the tea just so people would drink more coffee ;) So show tonight...hope it won't rain. Here I go...trudging onward... 
