  urlLink Why a day of a birth can be also a day of mourning? Just three days ago, I receive a sms from Celine telling me how much she miss me and how much she miss Adelaide and just in Monday morning, I received news that she is involved in a car accident and she has passed away. Though I hate her but I have also learned to forgive her and I am grateful to have her as my friend. I am also grateful that I am one of the first person in her mind when she has a problem. I am grateful that she treats me as someone special in her life. The last time that I shared with her will now be a memory to me. The story and long conversation that we share is now deep in my heart. Her voice, her smile, the way she call my name, the way when she make fun of me, the things that we share together, the picture that we took together, the tattoo on my body, the naval piercing that I have, the moment when we were being robbed, the time when we spent drinking, the time when we smoke together outside at our house just bring tears to me. The problem that her face, the things that she has shared with meI know it clearly that all this thing is not what she want. I also know that she will feel that she has so many things that she want to do, so many thing that she want to settle and she cant. I know this is life, no one want this to happen but I just cant accept the fact that she left me. Just the thought of her bring tears to me, just a thought of her bring a sorrow smile in my face.
What is in her mind when she was involved in the accident? What is in her mind when she was in pain and die on the way to the hospital? Many things in my life just remind me of her, the photos that we took together, and the moment that we share together. I miss her so much, I am happy that I have told her everything that she needs to know about me. I am happy that she knows that I have Jason by my side now.
Why life is so painful? There are just so many things that I want to tell her. There is so many things that I want to share with her. She will always stay in my mind; she will always stay in my heart. Celine, thanks for forgiving me for everything that I have done. Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for all the memory that you have given me. Please rest assures that you have nothing to worry about me. Please rest assure that I am always by your side, accompany you and stay beside you, take care of you when you are in trouble. I am grateful that you are happy to have me as a friend. Celine, I miss youyou are always my close friend. 
