  Current Mood: Depressed and Lonely Current Music: "Oh, Susanna," The Be Good Tanyas My fucking god today sucked. Sucked so bad I just claimed to have a god. My whole body aches, even my ass from falling down.
It was field trip day at the YMCA Summer Camp, and so we went roller-skating. I am not too bad, I do alright. No fancy tricks or anything, but I don't really fall down (Well, there was that once, but that's because a kid ran into me). So my feet are killing me because I skated for almost 5 hours straight. My legs hurt from over-exertion, and my feelings are shattered. We went to a park afterwards to play and hangout and whatnot. The kids that had their own blades went around the pavilion there a few times. Mostly we just sat around and watched the kids play. Well, we had a kickball and a softball field, so I thought, what the heck, I love kickball, we'll play. So I gathered enough kids and counselors and took them out to the field. We got started, I kicked a double and then Justin kicked me home. I was having fun. We got out in the field and I ran for a kick in the outfield behind third base, and fell in the gigantic mudhole out there from all the rain, twisting my ankle. I limped back and Owen said, why don't you play first and I'll play back here, because apparently I didn't recover the ball fast enough to suit him (what happened to it being just a game; we set such lovely examples). So I played first base, and sure enough the next kick was way out behind me, so I ran to get it.
Then I wasn't running fast enough and everyone was laughing and making fun of me. For years (every year of my life) people made fun of me for all number of things. I learned to let it slide off my back. When I went to college no one did that anymore. Everyone there appreciated me for who I was and didn't mock me (well, except Nathan...).
So I am not used to that degree of ridicule, especially from Owen who is supposed to be my friend. I wanted to sit down and cry, but I didn't. I just walked away from the field. I will let it roll off, I will not let them get me upset. I'm not good at much, but I am a strong person. That they cannot take away from me... 
