  going to bed soon.  been editing my book for the past few hours while reading middle stories by urlLink sheila heti again.  i strangely love this book.  i noticed on amazon that it was released urlLink again ?  i have the old edition with handglued photograph on the cover and the uneven pages.  that is how my book will be.  uneven and possibly missing pages ( missing probably in only certain people's copies)  my book will be imperfect.  the grammar will be incorrect at times and full of runon sentences.  captilization left out.  hypens missing.  it will break copywright laws and i will quote people without their approval.
 but it will be something i am proud of.  and for everyone that i love.  some slean for you to rest your eyes with.  goodnight.  madeliene shall her story end?  with this aftermath music my broken french?  heal her if you can pray the lions aren’ t waiting take her hand i want to be brave i want to be brave but the night goes up in flames the courage we need a fury to tame this madness,  madness,  madness no more will i count the dead bending gathering words i should have said when night falls it scrapes its knees we watch the houses on fire and she says to me i want to be brave i want to be brave but i don’
t think i’ ll love again the dark is so deep i’ ve lost my way in this madness,
 madness,
 madness over time luck runs out and fate is not your friend over time good must go and are we safe yet?  madeliene can i escape again?  out of a dragonfly jar am i safe yet?
